Hey,celebs any idea?!? How u feel?

So I adore this male celeb alot. I write alot of romantic n flirtatious msgs on his website ..... But when I go to chk on them they r deleted!!!! I don't use bad language?!? Would it mean I'm stalking the guy becuz he is kinda my family friends relative . But he doesn't know it so is dat weird?!? Would it get me in trouble?!? Like defame n stalking n harrassing. I promise I have never met him in person, I would faint if I do?!? I think he is in with some chick of that family?!?